One Day at a Time

Abandoned

I’m getting really sick of feeling like no body cares about me. I’ve tried reaching out to people but I keep getting rejected by all of my “friends”. I know I haven’t been the best friend lately but I’m trying to fix it and no body will let me. I’m not that good at asking for help but in my own way I really have tried asking for it. I guess it’s my own fault for thinking that these people knew me well enough to know that I was asking for help. I don’t know. I just feel really alone right now. I know there are people out there that understand what I’m going through but it’s not like I’m able to reach out to those specific people right now. I’m tired of living the life that I am. I need to change it but I’m so scared. I feel like I have no support from anybody and I definitely can’t change my life around if no body is here for me. I can’t do this alone but I might have to try. That thought scares the fuck out of me. I really hope that my feeling alone and left behind ends soon. It’s killing me to think that none of the people I hold so close to my heart even care about me anymore.

Up all night.

I’ve been up all night worrying my ass off. Maybe it was all for no reason but when I sense that something has gone bad it usually has so… now we’re back to worrying.

I’m extra sad today… :(

taintedchelsea:

you’ve become so

damaged that when
someone wants to
give you what you
deserve,
you have no idea
how to respond. 

(Source: itsonlyyforever)